i'm not a student anymore(how i miss my college life), i am a teacher now, early childhood teacher especially. it's not an easy job because i have a very big responsibility on it. anyway, even though i really love my job, (feels like i have my own world now, i'm lost in previous field before as you know), it's hard for me to drown in this proficient company. feel like i really dumb, the only one dumb person in that place. i have to learn many things, and start to be an enjoy bookworm i guess.
i know nothing, compare with the other coworkers i'm less about experience and knowledge. just because i'm the youngest, it couldn't be a weapon to make a defense. i'm not confident, low self esteem, and etc. whoaaaaa... can you imagine that feeling?... when my trainer teached me during class training few weeks a go. i knew i'm in storming phase. before i was so excited about this job i was in forming phase, when all the expectations were high, and full of happiness. but in reality when i through these all, it's not easy for me. honestly i was freaking out, it's not like the same thing that i thought before.
but as the time goes by.. i'm still learning, be a continous learner is the best decision. " don't be an easily satisfied person. make a reflection of all the things u've been done. don't afraid to make a mistake, practice more. even when you know there's a mistake within, you will learn more and make your work better. be happy, and be grateful. when you know there's a passion on it, don't worry. just learn and learn." a quotation that i made by my self just to remind that i will be in a right way, with appropriate way of thinking, hopefully.
after this storming phase, there will be a beautiful rainbow, called performing phase. i'll be there later on, soon :)
-strawberry for ms. sassa-
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